That some people don't know how to express themselves. Rather, create gaps of silence. That's why I remember that the rage in this instructor was like anything else, where there's unexpressed emotions. You like him, tend to act out on assumptions.

So, you haven't let go of what happened. You are not yet sorry. Be sorry for being too hard on me, and you'll set free to discover what you've been hoping to know. You should have understood that I couldn't focus back then even if I wanted to. Because of the places where I went naively astray. You want more and more without being sorry.

It's not gonna happen that way. You want answers, well 1st reflect. Don't steal my answers. Intimately it should be as simple as I'll just tell you. I don't feel like that. You've set free to some extent, but not to what you hoped. Ask yourself if I trust you. That's the most important thing you should question. Everything else will come with...

I meant ultimately not intimately*. But you like assignments, you like things like that.

When I said I feel sorry and meant it like back in 2018 like everything started. Get to that point. Whan you can tell me I feel sorry for being too hard on you cus I couldn't express myself and you'll almost be there when you're able to say that to me and mean it.

I hope you get there. It's a good place to be. When you can feel it in your soul, and say that you are sorry and mean it with everything. You'll be there soon after.

He did transfer of spirits to you, to transfer you his bitterness. Rebuke it, and bind it. He doesn't want to take what's meant for him. He rather burden me, trying to see if he can force the door open. I haven't seen him for many years. He just demonically manifests himself. He lives in the occult.

I'm glad I went off the clock a few days or sooo... See, that's the plot and scheme. It's all demonically manifested. It's a scheme trying to create a demonic stronghold. Forgive release don't get stuck with your emotions where it doesn't serve you well. Is it leading you to the right spirit if yes, then that means it's serving you well.

It's like a divination. They take things to sea and do things like divinations. And, they do things like tie me downs to try to tie someone down it's so draining it doesn't ever feel meant to be. One time a long time ago they tried to take me to one of those ladies, and I didn't want to go that route, so...

In your deliverance you got to the root of the issue..well, that's the hardest part.. overcoming the original betrayal I endured long ago those are the set of people. They basically operate thru intimidation and once that doesn't work they try to gaslight you that you might be crazy. In the midst they use occult.

And, if all else fails they send a demonic force of someone trying to seduce you with sex outside of marriage. Therefore, they can try to lead you astray. It's a scheme. That what they used. That's what happened. I simplfy it for you so you won't dwell over people that are not ethical. It's what they have chosen to do they may not stop.

They may not stop, but you can exit out of their scheme. And, like a different life. Let them get there wrong. Don't worry about what they decide. Just know that maybe they got there faster and found bitterness. You can get there balanced and happy maybe later but better.

Live a different life.* You haven't been happy because you are helping not serving God. You don't have to go to location to serve. You can just give a bum a outfit what have you. Charity is a part of things. It's serving.

You still need help with them huh? Unfortunately not, what you're feeling is that they don't want to give back what they took forcing the door open with witch craft divinations and things like that. It's hard for you to figure that out yourself since you wouldn't know. I'm sorry, that it's info that even of you had all the right intent you don't...

You don't have unless I relay it. Just keep seeking deliverance in general. You're just not gonna have direct answers to what you're questioning right now. I no longer want to carry junk that's why.

Are you just kinda just getting taunted by their demonic spirit. That means you need more deliverance. You may without knowing have an open door thru unforgiveness. I learned to forgive myself when I realized when I did, I didn't fail on my own account. You need to also, take accountability if you were ever to hard on me because you made...

Because you made your own ideas without confirming it with the direct source. I am the direct source you needed confirmation from. That's the right mind set being humble enough to get confirmation directly. Like, I have this question??? What it is... So on.... Assuming or like some went on the wrong drive.. it's unfortunate..they need to settle now

Y te llego la tristesa. I don't know what to say right now. I really went all the way astray. I know you're mad at yourself still. Don't be. That's negative treatment towards yourself. I didn't but feel some rocks. It's definitely okay. It wasn't gonna happen that way. I remember having like absolutely all the talent in the world but lost astray..

It was awful really. Feeling like in a second I could figure out the whole problem to anything complex that like rocket scientist couldn't or something. But, just like being astray. And, then when I almost fell in love.... It all just started to be better. I didn't care one second about the cases I didn't want to deal with. I was like one second..

Away from closing the door all the way. See you not ever... It felt so good. And, I guess not yet.

But no I came to my senses. I was just hoping to escape the astray and everything that came with that... I know I get it now that I see clearly. I feel sorry. I'm sorry that the right words just didn't come out ever back then.

Nor the right words .. I just didn't say anything. I wish I could do that again. This is my attempt to go back to that. In my thoughts, that's where my words stay. I'm trying to go back to that. It was a good cool time that way.

Nor the wrong words***. I'm trying with all life to go back to that.

In your new found examine of conscience. Set your mind on fixing your errors in relation to what you did to me because you were just taking your own ideas and reacting. You didn't realize that it wasn't that way. That's why it's not good to not receive confirmation. Now, you're bitter and need to find the words to apologize. You need it.

It's eating up at your conscience. And, that's just because you feel embarrassed that you were wrong and you think if you apologize You're gonna look bad. And, no. You look bad without apologizing. Since, you now have control issues because it made you insecure of how you truly are at fault.

You're gonna go in circles till. It's testing You're accountability. Make yourself accountable, after so you'll see that piece and emotions that eat you up slowly will go away. It's cus you didn't know how to express yourself. You thought you had to be strong for something. Maybe you did but, you took it to far.

Te callo ensima.... Meaning, it's taking a toll on you not being able to just simply say you were wrong in how you reacted. And, what have you. Not only did you become insecure but, you are now controlling. That's not good that means that you are over due to make things right.

A straight path. Of righteous. That's ultimate. You can't reach that until you fix your wrong doing. Sometimes it's repentance. Sometimes it's accountability. Sometimes it's what other factors. Check yourself on how you reacted. It's because you felt like that was the only way because if not I wouldn't get your attention. No, that's not why God is,

Like, start with small steps if needed. I truly don't want to stand in any further gaps. Have you known to pray and ask God. I had to ask him in the perfect way to exit me from a gap long ago and he did. You're now trying to be wheeled into negativity and they are trying to wheel you in with fear.

See... You are carrying negativity cus you don't focus right.i have a bitter man, a insecure man, so on that have ideas about me. Lol. And, we didn't ever truly get anywhere. One of them has confidence in the devil and not in God. So, his confidence is off.

When you come to that examine of conscience you also have to rectify your wrong doings.. and that's what you've come to. Ask for more clarity as to how to rectify how you just where a silent person in my life, that's doesn't serve. What are your intentions?

If you want to get married, why don't you? Instead of spending your time in guilt.

Just ask God if you are getting called to marriage and to lead you to the right person. Stop sending me mixed signals or any type of mind games. You can figure out what you need. I don't know what you need to hear from me.

One bought me an engagement ring, I didn't wear it or anything. Cus he gave me a condition I didn't want to do. You feel all the time if it's the right person. If you need just advice omg please take it but don't annoy me. It was hard at 1st to erase those memories. I have erased them thought. I'm almost done. I just need to tear the hard copies.

All the injustice to the person that belongs in my life. I'm trying with all I can possibly do to take down. It didn't hit me till a few years ago I was like what is this. Those are just all the men that want to be him, and what he means to me. I'm in the middle of a counterfeit now, I have to erase all my emails account so he can go away.

He actually tricked me into meeting with him. I get a counterfeit trying to form all the time I constantly have to change my phone number and devices. It's been a lot of work to do. I sometimes get tired..rarely, but yes. The hardest one has been when I had to erase and donate anything that is linked to someone that is not it. I have donated tons.

And, then one actually took me to look at homes, and was portraying to be everything you ever hoped for. Like the house and we went to look at homes he tricked me.. he had to do all that so we could have sex once. I feel like I regret it. It only happened because he tricked me..he knows he did. I erased everything about that person.

I just couldn't settle down cus all the hindrances needed to be corrected and or be off the table. I have to erase almost everything. I wanna look like me original me..not carrying all this junk for others and crosses that aren't mine to carry. You want to get married, yes I can see it but you have to understand that you've been looking to...

I feel so bad that years ago I didn't realize the astray I was in. I wanted to settle down a long time ago. But, truly I was exploited by what I could do for them..I didn't ever feel like those guys were genuine. Well, no. Better said. I didn't feel like it was meant to be.

This new acquaintance tells me to start singing. I don't want to take on any more hobbies to confess. I am just wanting to restore. I need more time to myself. I don't think that has ever been possible. I would just get away from anything to bitter. Like, the one that I can't seem to get off my back. He thinks we are in Goda will..yet we haven't...

He thinks we are in God's will.* And, his delusion makes him unwilling to move on past the thought. It's truly not meant to be. I know cus he doesn't settle in my spirit. I'm tired of dealing with his bitter spirit hoovering over me. Why, doesn't he move on.

He's been hindering me for a lot of years, and we haven't got anywhere. It's his bitterness that doesn't let him see like work on repenting, and then you will have what you need. He hoovers over me with his bitterness. I'm super tired of it.

Maybe you're getting called to rectify what you did wrong, that you feel messed up something you hoped for back then. Well, to rectify. In your harndened state of mind understand that you only made things hard. And, everything you didn't want. You did that.. now, you feel like there's a bitter man hovering over everything. He must go his way.

You'll have a sense of peace once you do. You were possibly working with a counterfeit. Yes, it's a manifestation of pieces of me. I wear that. I have that skirt, counterfeit. Sent to distract you. I wasn't a good balance back then that's why I didn't know what to say. I was in need of emotional healing. Rectify what you were supposed to be doing..

I worked on a number of things that weren't the right direction that tells me that who belongs in my life was searching. Searching for what I am naturally and spinning his wheels, no luck coming back hoping for at least pieces of me. It's not the right mentality. Pieces, no. The whole person, that's ideal.

I'm apologize for angering you. I got frustrated. I wanted time to myself. To be quiet and alone. That's what I was trying to do.

I didn't have internet access, don't be discouraged. I think you were lacking information, that's why you reacted the wrong way. I understood that soon after, and was able to focus for a long time on getting all the astray out of the table. Those are just all the souls that aren't on good with intent, manifestations. Demonic. Deliverance is the key

Please don't do that anymore. Believe it or not that piece of information that I haven't relayed may be crucial. A lot of times, I just feel like downgrading. But, it hasn't been possible. Like, it's okay. I'll be the wife of a little guy. But, I quickly come to my senses. I came across a little guy that went on the wrong drive because I didn't ...

He's little. I think I'm taller. And, I'm short. He's a little guy. He went on a wrong drive because I didn't want to be in a relationship with him.. and, then he did everything in accordance to show me, until he tried to get back at me when he got a position in cinema. I'm sorry it just wasn't it. He has confidence in the devil, when...

He had confidence in the devil,.. when I gave him a Bible resource he got furious. We didn't have sex, though he did try to trick me once. And, you wouldn't know that. Again, just almost reacting with lack of information is the worst. Don't do it.

I don't know how long I'll have internet access. LoL. I guess it's limited. In my haste to move the f on from the wrong emotions of others, I have had to change numbers like way too much.. I notice everytime they can't be the right person, they try to make me into a looser. LoL. Which is so bad for them, then they have to fix and hold themselves...

They have to hold themselves accountable... Oncethey come down from their high lol. Way too much weed, they feel like super man. Omg. It's hard, to be the sober one. When they come down my only answer is clean your stomach.

Until, there's an accounbility the will be stuck not being able to move on. It's injustice, it has to be resolved. I have lived it because the counterfeits can't repent because they will look bad. It's wrong pride. They look worst not being humble enough to hold themselves accountable.

Who did all this astray Leo.. he keeps in delusion burdening me. He knows what he did. If he wants a chance of his meant to be he needs to come clean with what he did. He did an original betrayal. He betrayed everyone in the right back in the days, in a backstabbing form and hid his intent in occult. If you can get him to come clean. He knows he's

Jonathan just erase all these ratings. Just like I told you when ever you are ready to focus on what you are supposed to be doing you'll erase all this. This just helps them, they aren't there yet in motive and intent. That's not what you're supposed to be doing being weighed down by their wrong.

Your emotions are not ready to focus. The best thing, is to set free the thoughts that don't serve you well. Carrying all this enormous amount of weight on your shoulders of problems that aren't yours to resolve is bad for you. Ask God for your cross, that's where you'll feel the burden light, it won't agitate you on purpose, or at all.

Ask God every day what am I supposed to be doing? And, listen to the right spirit, not the wrong spirit. Keep asking what am I supposed to be doing? Ask again, until God confirms it. You'll get confirmation that gives you peace, you'll get revelation that gives you peace. Keep asking God what am I supposed to be doing?